Mixed just like a salad

Nothing's getting better, perhaps I think some stuffs are getting worse.
How I wish I can wake up tomorrow having my old group back. Nothing else, but the group. Maybe.
I wonder what I've done to have myself (and my friends) ended up in this kind of situation.
Everything hurts, but I just smile. We just smile.
I still laugh, when something is funny. We still laugh
However, behind every smile is the truth. Cliche much.
Nothing would make things better. Still.
Nothing can make me smile like how I used to smile. Like how I used to be so happy.

Stephen is still ignoring us.
Salina and Tiara are fighting, Tiara's pissed with Salina like big time.
Vanessa is feeling miserable. Super.
I am feeling miserable.
Tiara is feeling miserable.
Fitra is feeling miserable.
In fact, I guess everybody is.
To top it all off, some blabbermouth said we're the "step" kind of group.
I can't be bothered with you blabbermouth.

Whatever.

I am wondering, will this obstacle bring us closer... or the other way round?
I hope our friendship is strong enough to get over this thing.
I can't afford to lose you guys.
Losing a somebody feels painful enough.
Please, I beg you guys... Hold on tight.

Vanessa bebe,
I don't really know what to say.
I'm not so good with comforting people, I guess.
And, yes the feeling of being abandoned sucks.
However, you'll get over everything soon.
Just have a proper mindset about everything, do whatever you want to do.
Stay if you want to, walk off if you can't take things anymore.
Whatever happens, I'm here, I got your back.
Cry out loud if you want to, if that will make you feel better.
But please don't do it infront of me. It kills, I swear.
Just open your heart to everything girl, everything would be better.

First few days you'll feel empty, yes.. I know.
That's why there's such things called as friends.
Yeah, I know it's different, the feeling would be different.
You wouldn't feel as if you're belonged and stuff.
Yeah, I'm still feeling that way, but nothing will help us if we can't help ourselves.
Pick yourself up and start over again.
I repeat, I got your back.
I'm with you.
ily.

xoxo