complete crap

Life's been getting better I shall say.
I think I'm getting back on track. Thank God.
But I don't get it why can't it just be - i good things getting better instead of having better things then having the other things worse?
Get me?
I also don't sort of get it, but try and comprehend it.
My life is getting better yet getting worse at the same time.
Weird.
I heard some of my friends planning to transfer and all.
And God knows how I treasure all my friends.
I'd be real heartbroken if one of them moves away or what.
Seeing them move away, for me, is as bad as losing them.
Why?
Without seeing them for a long time, you'd feel this certain gap.
Then sooner or later, they'll find new friends, face it. They might forget you.
Be realistic, I've experienced it myself.
I don't even know my primary school friends now.
And I don't even know some of their names.
It may be or may not be possible(current friends leaving) , but who fucking cares(?).
I just don't want any separations to happen.
Cause, literally they're already part of my life.
Duh.

Anyway, I guess I shall not make my tone gloomy and everything.
I might turn ugly. (?)
Crap.
Damn, kind of remembered something the moment I typed 'ugly'.
Been pissed the whole day cause of that.(kind of)
Stephen said something to me which really made the starting of my day real sickening
But hey, in fairness my day ended perfectly. *wink

But that sickening thing really left me some kind of an impression or something.
I don't really get it why some people think they're extremely good and everything. Like they're perfect or what.
Get this thing straight biatch - Nobody is perfect.
And definitely that applies to you and you and you.
You're pissing me off real bad.
You're provoking me to the highest point.
Do one more wicked bitchy thing and I'd be one of your avid haters.
Accept reality.
Try to be humble.
Even a little bit.
Trust me.
I'm Angelika.
Hoho.

you know you love me
angelika