caught between situations

Trust.
A short word with a big meaning.

I'm the person who can trust others easily but on the other side doubts much easier.
Face it, we tend to doubt and think that others are indeed lying when we smell something is amiss.
Be it if he or she is your other half, your parent, your friend or just some random stranger next to you.
Trust forms when you know a person well.
Regardless of how long have you known one another.
Situations change, so does people, if people change... does that mean the trust would be back to square one?
Perhaps it will.
If the changed situation brings you away from the person you trust, you tend to forget what the both of you shared. Even the toughest scenario maybe.
It's tormenting to know when you wake up that the person you trust most just doubted you. If you trust him/her so much, how dare could he/she doubt you?

I doubted you, well I'm sorry.
I believed the situation more than you.
Two years, you can say... I've known you for two years.
Or let say, I've known the old you for two years.
I trusted the old you.
Situations brought the both of us far from each other.
Situations made me or us doubt you.
Let's face it my friend, you really did change.
The down to earth girl I used to know is gone.
The girl I used to love the most compared to the rest of my friends is not the current you.
I believe the both of you looks alike, has the same name. But she isn't you.
I miss her.
Bring her back will you?

Shaqdah,
I'm sorry, perhaps the gaps and all the stuffs that's keeping us from being friends again made me doubt you.
I don't know much about the current you, so I don't really know what to say.
I do not know how does your thinking work.
I don't know what do you really feel, and whether are you telling the truth or what.

We are friends. But look closely... Do we act as if we are?
We see each other every morning, we greet each other, eat at the same table every recess, perhaps share the same set of friends.
That's what keeping the both of us together, these are some of the only stuffs which makes us friends.
Don't you think so?
If we won't be able to do some of the stuffs I mentioned earlier, are we still friends?
xxxxxxx

All I can say is I'm sorry alright.
And I'm trying to trust you again.
Just be sure that you'll be open with me/us, so that I/we won't doubt.
I'm sorry again.

I was
Angelika