come to think of it

Today's May 17, and guess whose birthday is it. Mine.
Thrilling.
I don't feel anything special, perhaps I'd feel it by Wednesday.
I think I'm really growing up. Sudden rush of stupidity came to me, accompanied by "mature" thoughts".

Angelika's day doesn't mean the whole world shall stop and celebrate.
Besides I'm not the only person who's having his/her birthday today.
Now, I'm sitting here with the monitor infront of me.
Treating everything as usual, well everything seems usual, except people greeting me happy birthday.
Haha. I'm still fucking fourteen. DUH.

Anyway whether I like it or not I'm already 15.
Good thing I spent my last 14-year-old-girl day awesomely.
Was out with Andre last night.
Lol.
Walked around town after his training.
Technically we just ate at taka's Mcdee's.
I find it real touching and cute that he passed dinner with his friends just to meet me.
He's real awesome you see.
Still sorta thinking what shall he buy for me. -.-
I still prefer surprises leh baby. Lol.
I have no choice but to tell him what I want, since he told me he has no idea what do I want.
The truth is, I wouldn't want anything cause I've already got what I need. :)
Sounds cliche doesn't it? But, it's true.
I feel real blessed right now, for having such a near to perfect life.
More than what I expect, I shall say.

Today isn't really my day.
It's the day for the people who made me what I am this very moment.
And it's the day to thank them.
For making me stronger, teaching me how to love, and finally for teaching me how to live my life the way I live it now.
Parents, bestfriends, siblings, friends, ex-friends, ex-bestfriends, ex-boyfriend.
Last but definitely not the least, Andre.
As you said, I've waited for you for already 15 years.
I've waited for every moment I'm having with you for 15 freaking years.
Damn. I don't wana continue and be sentimental, thank you very much.
Til here.

your 15 year old girl
Angelika