Current Situation

I'm tired.
But I can't sleep.
I want to let go, but my grip's too tight.
I want to walk away, but my heart and my mind asked me to stay.
My eyes are swollen.
But can't stop crying.
You know, everything just happened so fast.
I didn't even see it coming.

It just hurts to see that whatever you've tried to build up, you'll just watch it go crumbling down.
Can somebody bring me back to sanity?
I need a break.
I've never been mentally tired.
I've never felt this awful.
Never felt so lost, it's like you know.. walking aimlessly around Heartbreak city.
I've never been there, you see.
I hope I don't hold a one-way ticket though.
I don't feel belonged.
I feel so alone.
I am not interested about doing anything.
Talking seems to make me feel better, but every time I remember the story.. I can't just help but breakdown.
It just everything seems to be so easy when you say it.
It's maddening.
But everything that's happening now is totally torturing me.
Life's being a torture to me.
It's so funny I remember me thinking that life is beautiful.
Well, it was.
Until this awful nightmare.