slightly better.

I am currently feeling better.
But when I was on my way home(just now), I thought that...
I'm gonna have some problems waking up and sleeping.
If I can do both.
Ok, I can't face mornings and evenings.
I feel very vulnerable everytime I am alone, and on my bed.
Without fiddling my phone or talking to somebody on the phone.
Ok, I shall not talk about this topic...
Cause it causes me some serious emotional breakdown.

While I was talking to Ate Ness, I thought that... I'm gonna do fine.
Though, sometimes.. I need to face some sad moments and shit.
I know it'll take forever for me to move on, but I guess that I shall really try my best.
There's no point asking him to stay, despite the fact that I want him to. Badly.
I think we shall be just awesome friends.. Yeah..
But, I think I need more communication as I really can't stand being alone.
That's the least he can do for me.

Now, I'm not gonna bet that we'd be back again or what...
I'm not going to hope for something he sort of mentioned as impossible.
I just hope I can get through this faster.
Seriously, even I'm getting better..
Everything is still lethal.