I'm a professional. LOL.

Tomorrow I'm going to perform at d' platform.
I didn't talk about it before on my other posts cause I too didn't had any idea that I am going to perform tomorrow.
Lol, talking about short notice.

Oh well, I had my only practice just now.
I was more than terrible, I had some kind of a mental block or something.
I totally forgot the lyrics of Love Story by Taylor Swift.
It was crazy cause it was my favorite song.
Oh damn.
I'm having a bad feeling about tomorrow.
I hope everything would be fine.
And I hope we will do well.
Crap.

And yeah, today was freaking awesome.
:)



I love you baby!
:)

To Shaqdah

Hey girl, just read your blog.
Btw I want you to know that yeah, I myself wishes the old us back.
The times when we were super close and everything.
I don't know why... but all the closeness we had through these years..
It was just gone by one kabam.
Perhaps you've been more close to others(?)
I don't know.
Now all I can say is, there is a real huge gap between Shaqdah and Angie.
And I can feel it'll take us quite a while more to patch things up.
All I can wish now is, for this gap not to widen more.
I hope we can jump through this enormous hurdle together.

I remember us planning for our future every time we talk on the phone and all.
I look forward for those days to come.
I hope this gap won't cause any further "destruction" in our friendship.
I treasure you, this friendship and everybody ghey gang.
I don't wish any stuffs like this to happen.
I really don't like it.
It's like just one kabam and everything we build up through these years went crumbling down.
It's painful to think that, that's currently what's happening to us.
Oh well...
I've wanted to tell you all these stuffs, but I am absolutely terrified that it may cause things to worsen.
but I can't keep this things any further.
I need to let it all out of my system.
I need to take risks, so we will both know what's really going on?

Oh well...
I wish you,Ain and Tiara goodluck on your SYF.



No matter what is happening, I'll always be right here.
The friend you'll always have.
I miss the old us.
I love you.

guilt running through my system

Today was kinda ok.
Awesomeness mixed with annoyance is equals to a balanced day.
but the ratio wasn't sort of equal.
Well whatever.
Today, there was this guy who came to me.
It was kinda weird when a somebody sees you, and you have no clue who is he/she.
Asks you to have a "private talk" with him/her.
Lol, that happened to me today.
There was this sec4 guy who was talking to Mr Shashi and suddenly came to me and told me that he needs to talk to me.
I was thinking deeply, "What does this guy want?"
And there he went asking whether I want to.... PERFORM!
Lol, yeah, he said it's for the international friendship day and all.
He said I'm going to sing When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne.
Without hesitation I said "Yes"
nevertheless, I'm feeling dissatisfied.
Because I don't really fancy that song, as Avril's songs are kind of difficult for me.
Therefore, it may cause tragedy.
well for me.
Ouh well whatever.
Maybe I can ask them to change the song(?)
Well I hope I can.
till here!



P.S.
Mom, get well soon.
I love Andre. :)

monotonous

Went to lot1 just now, to have fun!
Lol, I am so infuriated with how my parents are trying to stop me from going out everyday.
Hello, Mom and Dad, your daughter is growing up.
Social life, I need it...
Every teenager needs it,mom or dad.
I know mom understands... but dad, please comprehend.
I need to enjoy my teen life, I may have been "abusing" my "freedom" lately.
But all I guarantee you is I'm going to work harder and going to finish my studies.
sounds ghey
I'm going to make the both of you proud one day.
but now, please.. understand me.
I only spend 2 hours of "hanging out" anyway.
As the both of you know, how my class usually ends at three.
Oh well.
I guess that's it.

Sucks

I overmuch hate PMS mode man.

Lol, speechless.
Tadaaa!

let's look on the brighter side...

There is no BRIGHTER SIDE!
where am I going to look at?!
Thinking of the fact that school is starting (again) tomorrow
is leaving my face an utter disgust sort of impression.
Can't I just be a reputable lawyer without going to school?
I don't know why am I starting to detest school.
I used to be enthusiastic and all about it, but now.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Infuriating.

I extremely dread school

Tomorrow would be the start of term 2.
And I can't make myself digest it.
Still feeling lethargic.
I'd rather do nothing than do my homework.
To hell with it.


Time flies.
Seems it was only yesterday that I was some kind of an alien landed in this country.
I talked differently from the others.
I wasn't so sociable.
Believe it or not, I was shy.
I was weird.
Strange.
Unusual.
Uncommon.
And all the synonyms of the word weird.

Ouh whatever, I'm just bored.

And to Shaqdah:
Cheer up girl!
I may not know what really happened.
But yeah, Cheer up.
I can't say anything uh. :)
Even there's some kind of a gap between us.
[like I said in msn]
I'll be right here.
Any problem, I am forever willing to be your listening ear
Smile,Sway your hips and Giggle.


To Jein Sacapaño:
I don't know why, but yeah.
I just feel like mentioning you
cause you mentioned my name twice on your latest posts.
Lol.
I know, I make your day and all crap.
I know so, you don't need to tell me.

There wasn't much happenings, trust me biatch.

My title have already declared it.
Even though I've blogged since...
Monday(?)

This "holiday" wasn't as riveting as I thought it would be.
Went out practically 2 times.
I mean those outings weren't major ones.
Pfffffffffffft.
Whatev.
Lamentable isn't it?
I shall not talk about this anymore, I find it very catastrophic.

I never thought that Poker face by Lady Gaga can be a song for line dancing?
Lol, random whatchamacallit.
Cause I hear Poker face coming from those old folks who's practicing their line dancing.

Ok, back to my life.
I have not yet to finish all my homework.
I'm feeling all devoid-ish lately.
CRAP!
I just remembered that I promised to myself that I'm gonna set my goals higher.
but seriously, I'm feeling all lethargic and don't feel like doing anything.
I wonder how am I going to respond towards my goals and all shit.
I don't want to give up without even trying.
That's fucking deformed. Lol, may appear non sequitur but it has links.

Today I sort of did quite a number of stuffs.
Did my Social Studies homework.
And gawked at the rest.
I mean the moment I look at it, I'd be totally amazed.
Why, cause it's so much that I assume I can't do it.
Screwwwwwwwww it.


Ok, I think I'm gonna just stop here.

I love you baby. :)

Without doubt, I can say it's indeed boring.

Still bored as usual, been using computer from the moment I opened my eyes.
I really hate holidays.
It sucks, cause I swear to God, it's indubitably boring.

I haven't done my homework/s yet.
Sucks.

This past 3(2?) days, I've only been watching movies.
Lol, I've been downloading and watching random movies.
Kinda boring, cause all I do is stare at this darn computer screen.
And yeah stare at it.

P.S.
I miss mom.
I love Andre

I don't get these irritating people.

I am bothered about how people can be so irritating.
I mean like, WHAT THE HELL is up with them?
Like hello, how would you like it when people try to provoke you. damn it

I have no idea what's got into me, and I'm getting pissed with these bunch of nuisances.
Whatev!
If you are irritating or annoying and if you are reading this.
Get this straight Mo-Fo - Change
Cause y'know what, you're acting like a major pest in this society.
Damn.
I hate annoying people.

Oh well, whatev.
Today is utterly plain.
I miss mom
Perhaps it's because we've been more close to each other since the August 12 incident.
And now I assume, she's the one who understands me best.
I guess.
Sometimes la.
Lol.


Currently talking to Andre.
My mind is muffled, something is keeping it from talking.
Hatred.

Well I guess I shall stop it already.
My mind is indeed empty right now.
Vacuous much.


And yeah.
I love you Andre.
:)

I am not myself

We are all a little weird.
and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone
whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them
and fall in mutual weirdness
and call it love

It's maybe a little bit too ghey for me.
but who cares.
:)

exhausted

Good morning Starbucks.
Lol, whatev. Just got home, from the airport. And I am unconditionally bushed.
I think I'm going to sleep now.

I....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

A2 for maths!

And yes, believe it or not... I scored A2 for my maths.
My results were fine, contented and happy with it.
My Humanities sucked, my POA totally rocked, it was a reasonable result for my art, and a not so surprising result for my combined science.


Fridays are so cool!
:)
It would have been more cooler maybe if I went home with my friends.
Whatev.

Starting from tomorrow, it would already be the March "holiday".
One week of hell for me.
Mom won't be here in Singapore, and perhaps I'd be rotting here at home til next next week.
Pathetic
If anyone wants to go out: Just let me know, perhaps I could come.
Whatev.
Anyhoo, I'm still broke- thank you.
I don't know why, but starting from that time when a heartless queer took the $65 plus my wallet.
It had been difficult for me to "save" money. I owe alot of people money.
What a life. Money makes the world go round.
Cliche but true.


P.S.
I love you Andre.
:)

Not literally cold

Try to think deeper, it's just metaphor. (I think)
It's a vair vair weird Thursday for me.
I've done my art in a short notice.
I mean like, I've done it - properly.
I guess it's because there was no Jein around.
She asked me to mention that I missed her in my blog.
Well, not really. NOT. Lol.
I missed Tiara too!
Both Tiara and Jein are sick.
Sad for them.
But hey, Tiara is already fine, too bad for Jein that she's still sick.
Well yeah, get well!


Enough of the sickalicious part.
so yeah, about today. Nothing much happened.
My title is kinda explaining it already.
Sucks.

Well whatev.

I love you, Andre!
Sorry about just now.
Haaaah!
Anyways, that paper right, it had some interesting crap written on it y'know.
Teehee.

You....

are the reason for every beautiful moment I'm currently having.
:D
Oh well, kinda random, but yeah..
Today, had English FAST test. [Lol, I sound like a typical blogger]
It was kinda arduous for me, as I don't really like comprehension stuffs,
cause as far as I know, I don't like comprehending stuffs.
Whatev.

Next was maths, well, it was pretty the same.

Physics...

yada yada yada....



Blah, well my Wednesday went pretty well.
nevertheless there were still stuffs that made it laborious enough for me,
well not really...somehow, I guess.
Something like "tested my patience".
Oh well, whatev.

I utterly detest human beings who keeps on believing I am a bad kid/young lady/girl/WHATEVER!
Who assumes I'm a malevolent kinda girl.

Whoever thinks that way, well too bad for you.
You thoroughly don't know me.
So fasten that colossal mouth of yours,
furthermore, don't talk like the way you are talking about me.

I didn't, I repeat: DIDN'T, indicate any name/s.
So if you can relate to this stuff I am saying.
Better reflect on what you're doing.
Cause you know what, you're so provoking me.
I hate you.

Whatev.


That was full of hatred, shit.

Oh well...
I love you Andre! :)
And the letter you gave me was simply wonderful, I think it's too good to be true.
Lol, so yeah.
I LOVE YOU!



To Jein: Haha, ayus na. :D
kaya ko naman eh, ata.
basta. Teehee.

If you can understand this well, good for you.

I feel like writing(typing[?]) using my mother tongue right now.
so, sorry to all those that who will not be able to understand.

Gaano man kakomplikado ang sitwasyon natin ngayon, kakayanin ko.
Alam mo ba kung bakit?, kasi mahal kita. Mahal na mahal.
Alam mo naman siguro yun, hindi ba?
Gaano man ako katagal kailangan maghintay para sa iyo, kakayanin ko.
Kasi, mahal kita.
Bibigyan kita ng oras para maintindihan ang nararamdaman mo.
Maghihintay ako.
Kasi ang sabi mo mahal mo ako, naniniwala ako na hindi.
Ewan ko kung bakit.
Basta, mahirap ipaliwanag.
Bahala na.
Ngayon, ang sabi mo, tayo parin pero hindi.
Dahil kelangan mo na sabihin sa sarili mo na hindi talaga tayo para dumeretso ang isip mo.
Hihintayin ko na umayos ulit ang pagiisip mo.
Kilala naman kita eh. :)
Basta, kahit ano na. Mahal kita at alam mo yun, lagi kitang mamahalin. seryosohan tayo.
Mahal kita.

HAHAHAHAHA, a proper tagalog entry!
This is so cool.
Ok, well.
Today is pretty neutral for me.
Did alot of writing. Sucks.
Oh heck.
Whatever.
:D


P.S.
Andre, I love you!

Happy World Kidney Day

While the kidneys were celebrating their "happy day"
I was having the worst day of my life.
Thank you baby for making March 9 unquestionably historic.
Well today has been a vair vair tiring day.
Hatred.
I hate today.
Today sucks.
Sucks sooooooooo bad.

MAJOR PISSER!

Currently majorly pissed!
I am pissed with everything right now, and when I say everything I mean no exception.
read me:NO EXCEPTION

Thinking that tomorrow is Monday is kind of pacifying me though.
Even I dread school, it's more dreadful to stay at home and be pissed all day.
I'd rather go to school, than be pissed all day - to that.
Oh heck.
Whatever. (!)
Everything is maddening.


SUCK
SUCK
SUCK!

A quiet Saturday morning

A vair vair boring day, been idling again...
I want to go out, but I don't feel like it.
I've got nothing to do the whole day so what I did was only - sleep and finish my artwork.

I find my artwork nice, well... at least it's nicer than my other artworks.
I think I'm going to do all my homework later, or maybe tomorrow.
Oh well.

Today Andre is super quiet.
I've only receive quite a number of text messages from him.
sucks!
He is busy with some stuffs.
Good thing that I'm not totally bored until I'm going bonkers, or else I'm really gona go bonkers.
Sooo yeah, I can't wait for Monday.
I have no clue why.
*rolls eyes*

I love you, more than you could ever imagine.

Oh well, today was simply magnificent.
What a flawless day to end the school week.
It's because today went extremely fast, lessons were done in a blink of an eye.
Didn't have POA cause Ms Kwok was elsewhere.
then next was mother tongue, and I totally realized that Stephen is a guy full of crap.
Twaddle twaddle twaddle - to the MAX!

Next was English, I didn't do the - I-was-supposed-to-do-correction-work, needn't to listen to Mdm Sal, and carry on with my thingamajig.

Recess...

Then chemistry.
Rocks!. I prefer chemistry more than physics, as we need to master those formula stuffs in physics.
Plus, I think physics has its "sub-subject". I think.
I mean like it's not just physics-alone.
It's like with math, and math.
Meaning... we need to compute, and yeah those formula thingamajig.
So yeah, chemistry... We got back our FAST test, I was eager to see how well did I do.
trying not to sound like a pessimist
When Ms Lin was announcing the highest and blah blah, I was kinda expecting my name.
Even somehow I find it kinda absurd.WTF
Then Ms Lin was saying the third highest... She went- "Angelika".
Hello!!! That's my name you're saying.
I was intoxicated!
Head over heels, bursting with joy.

It's been so long since my name was said being one of the highest.
I think it's because I treat education lightly.
I think that it's not really a big deal whatsoever.
I know that my kind of thinking is rather fallacious.
And I know it's bad for me, and my future.
So, I'm trying my best to change it.
And I'm starting next week, I'm going to set my goals higher.
Wish me luck.




Well there's much more happened today, AWESOME TO THE MAX!
and yeah, I guess I shouldn't blog about it, and yeah.. it's a very interesting bit.
:D



I LOVE YOU BOYF, TO THE MAX

SUCKS!

Today sucks that's for sure.
It totally sucks that it's leaving me speechless.
I don't want to blog already, not in the mood.
I was in the mood, but well...today has been too acrid for me.
Too much that I can't handle it.
That's all I can say.
TODAY SUCKS!
sucks so bad.
SUCK
SUCK
SUCK!

Happy World Maths Day!

My title says it all, HAPPY WORLD MATHS DAY!
Never did once a thought came into my mind saying there is such things as "world maths day".
Wondering, why won't they make it like a major thing or something.
How about making everyone wear something with numbers on it, whatsoever.
Uhm, making everyone talk mathematically. E.g. "Hi, how did your addition and subtraction blah blah worked out?"
SUCKS!
But hey, the http://www.worldmathday.com/ is kinda fun. (Advertisement :D)
The feeling of getting first, is so cool.
It's easy!
Ok enough of this dorky thingamajig.


Today went well, but baby is still sick.
It's a very distracting sight I might say.
I'm not used seeing him like this. Sucks.
And yeah, today I performed at The Platform.
Thank God, kudos to me and Roth!
Ok, ghey.
But hey, I am convinced that we really did well.

Blah Blah.
I am vair vair bothered about how other people act inconsiderately.
I mean just now I was boarding the MRT, I was pissed as my mom and I fought about some stuff.
Then yeah, it was 5-ish, I think it was somehow peak hours, as there was a crowd there, meaning..bunch of people times 100.
And yeah, notwithstanding several number of human beings, I managed to get into the train.
*rolls eyes*
There was this uncle, who kept on pushing my bag.. I was like to me.. "HELLO FUCKER.. THE GIRL IN FRONT OF ME IS PUSHING ME TOO, HOW ABOUT PUSHING ONE ANOTHER?.. THAT MAYBE CAN SATISFY THE BOTH OF YOU?!" -ANTAGONIZED
I mean like I was literally sandwiched by these two people who loves to push other people!
I was vair vair pissed.
but I just abandoned the whole thing , I can't afford to fight with a girl younger than me and an uncle.

Whatever.


To Andre: Get well soon. Kinda missing the "un-sick" you. :D
I love you!

Tuesday

Today, pretty much nothing happened.
A tiring and cold day.
I won't be surprised if one day I'll fall sick.
The weather lately kinda sucks, but it's cold.
I love that shivery feeling though.
Baby is sick,[he assumed that/it] he has been complaining almost the whole day.
And yeah, his phone was confiscated cause of my negligence. (correct?)
It's cause I have his phone with me, and he has my phone with him.
Then, I was drama-ing with him and stuff, the teacher saw me SMS-ing and yeah, took the phone.
I wasn't scared or what. I was cool, cool as ice when she asked it from me, cause I know that if ever I talk back I'm going to be in bigger trouble.
Blah Blah.
Today is Marcus' and Nazrun's birthday, well yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOTH OF YOU.
Lol, a happy birthday from me is priceless, so yeah, be thankful you guys are my friends. ;D
well, I guess I shall end my post right here.

♥ xoxomostimporantthinginmylife,iloveyou.

Awwwww, Sunday sucks.

Oh well, today today is a rainy Sunday. Sucks. I hate Sundays, I hate rain.
It's VAIR VAIR boring, and tomorrow is Monday-finally.
I dread school. I don't want to go to school, but there's no other choice but to go to see friends and yeah, have fun (?)
Well I am purely crapping right now.
I have nothing to say cause all I did today was plainly idling.
Super boring to the max i tell you.
And yeah, today Aunt Carmen went back to Phil.
I didn't follow to the airport cause her flight was freaking early.
*rolls eyes*
Whatever.
I haven't done my POA homework, cause I forgot my book- it's under my table...I guess.
I would like to end this post now.
Bye.

And yeah,
I love u baby.
:D