Miss(ing) Philippines

Sigh...
Surprisingly after looking at my ex-classmates' friendster profile, I felt like going back and staying there again.
Though, I'm having the time of my life here. I can't help but to feel envious everytime I see their photos, cause if I hadn't left, perhaps I would have been in those pictures too.

Two days, and all I know-It's not working.

I can already feel the pain of school holidays, and thank God it's been...TWO DAYS!
The thought of needing not to go to school tomorrow kills me. No exaggeration.
It's only been two days, and here I am feeling like killing myself because of boredom.
Nothing helps at all, dad keeps on blabbering about my room.
He said it needs to be cleaned. I guess they don't understand, my room needs NO cleaning.
It's perfect as it is, Ronaldo. Thank you very much! :D
Haha, I talk as if they'd clean it for me. I wish!

Ok so, today's VANESSA'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA!


Ok, so I'm really hoping that I'm going to make full use of this holiday.
That maybe have fun. Lots of it, preferably. Need it.

I'm currently having HUGE problem with the class shirt, darn it.
Money's completely short.
I don't know what am I going to do, grrrr.
Whatever, perhaps just let stuffs happen.
If the money I'm going to have won't make it.
Then no choice, shall wait til the end of holidays and solicit money from my fellow classmates.
Boohoo, to those who are completely excited about it.
Lol.

I guess. That's it pretty much for today.
Life's really a toad every holidays.
Suck.
I'm going to bathe now.
Ciao!

I need you to get me through everyday
Angelika

hate that i do so

I'm sick and tired of all the dramas between the both of us.
It's tiring to go round and round repeating everything we do (or I do), that only hurts the both of us.
I'm sick of hurting you, and making you worried everytime I get "disappointed" with stuffs that you do that I ain't happy with.
I am fucking fed up with myself-for being unable to control my feelings and for being unable to comprehend you and your words.
I hate every moment when we fight, when I am completely monotonous, when you're starting to get pissed and everything's just fucking ugly.

Hey, I'm sorry.
You see, whatever you feel same goes for me.
You told me that whenever I joke about stuffs, it hurts you.
Same goes for me, just maybe two times the pain.
I never liked hurting you nor giving you a hard time just for me to forgive you.
As whenever I do that, I get extremely angry with myself.
Whenever I hear you say sorry like one desperado, it hurts me. Alot.

Baby, SORRY.
I love you.

Sleepyhead

This guy is now sleeping.

And I miss him. :(
Sickening you! Why must you sleep so early?
Grrrrrr, anyway... I love you. :)

gaze into my eyes

Just sort of got home from Bishan. Accompanied baby to his dental thing.
Well it was just for awhile, oh well... sort of worth it.
Today's been real short and sweet.
We did nothing.
Mr. Wee's talk made me regret more, crap.
I chose the wrong path of life, what a bitch.
Oh well, on the brighter side... It's not too late to make up for everything I've done.
To straighten me up, and get working.
I still got time on my side.For now. Phew.
So what am I going to do?
C.R.A.P.

Talk is cheap, indeed.
For me, Getting me to concentrate is at the same page as social suicide.
Wow. I really need to keep my word now.
I NEED to.
I need to get a good life. For me, and my future stuffs.
I don't want to be some good-for-nothing whore. That would be a total shame and a great disappointment to my parents.
I need to make my parents proud!
ANGELIKA, YOU GOT TO MAKE YOUR PARENTS PROUD!
I need to put the not so necessary stuffs of my life aside, but what are these "not so necessary stuffs"?
This is hard.

I wonder how those brainiacs manage to get good results.
I'm amazed in some sort.
Focus, yes. It's sounds easy, but it's really hard...especially for me.
....
Thank you!

I think I got to aim higher.
I need to work on my art.
Patience, focus... yes. I'm going to learn you values, one day I'm going to have you stupid values wrapped around my fingers.


I shall stop ranting and start enjoying my holidays!
I hope it won't be boring as fuck.
Looking forward to a fun packed holiday, so STEPHEN... be ready to plan some outings.
:D

My heart is yours
Angelika

Miss Grumpy

So today's been pretty much okay. I've been grumpy today, and real grumpy. I hate it! :(
All the way.
It's been hard on baby I guess. Gave him a hard time just now.
I'm sorry baby, bear with me. Can?
It's only once in a month, I hope.

So yeah, school's been boring, really really boring. I can't believe I wasted $10 just to get to school on time.
Art, we literally did nothing. I sat with Danial and Jein to talk about our love stories, past and whatnot. Next was Chemistry, watched random stuffs from Ms.Lin's lappy.
English was next, jammed all the way.
Math, chatted with Ms. Tan about personal stuffs. Really find it shocking that she's open about certain stuffs.
FYI, she knows about me and Andre, shocking? HELL YEAH.

Then went home straight away.
Sorta short compared to my usual day ain't it?
Oh well...



Anyway, baby...
Really I'm sorry.
You know I love you, and I won't leave you for any shallow reason.
So yeaah...
Even you disappoint me sometimes...
It's ok..
I still love you.
:)

you brighten up my day

Shaqdah!

SHAQDAH!
Happy Birthday!
shall give you the present once we bought it.
Lol.
Ily.

Sorta fun day

Today went to Changi places, had fun imitating our idols. (Gaijin people)
Got home pretty much late. Around 7.15.
Well, I guess that's it. I'm really really tired.
Crap.
No wonder Stephen's blog is sorta short of words. I feel him

Anyway, yeah.. I'm tired.
I guess this photo was our first attempt, it's sorta successful compared to the other photos.
Various reasons.
Too many to mention, I tell you.

Like these two, as you guys can see. It's super obvious that we really can't take it.
It's hard, real hard. I really salute our idols!
They're so amazing that they're able to overcome such a difficult moment.
:)

Following photos would be random photos.

We were really bored while waiting for my baby's 2.30. -.-

I'm lazy to upload already.
Perhaps some other day?


P.S.
I love you leh baby! :P
Alot uh. :D
Even you disappoint me with some stuffs.
Hehs.
I love you again!

...you're unlike any other

Gaijin!

Gaijin Gang

I'm one of their greatest fan, and yes I'm totally crazy about them.
They rock the hell out of their fans' smelly socks.
FYI- Today is the official day for this precious gang for its fans.

To my co-Gaijin fans:
Happy GAIJIN DAY!
:D


In fact me and the rest are so crazy about them, we're so going to get a photo that's similar to that photo up there. :D

To Master Gaijin Jein:
I am so proud of you.
You managed to form a very wonderful group.
I take my hats off you.
Bravo!


xoxo
Gaijin's Most Awesome Fan
Angelika



GAIJIN ROCKS!
Numero Uno, mi amigos!

it'd be long gone

Heard the word 'choice' quite a number of times today.
I guess the school's really trying to inject some stuffs into our brain so that we would like end up having no regrets in life.
Touching. Yes.


Today, our whole curriculum time was eaten up by talks.
First 2hours was about consequences of sex (?).
For the next hour we sorta caught a glimpse of our results.
I got 10th in class, pretty bad. I used to get 8th!
Buck up. Yes, perhaps that would be the phrase that should be stuck in my mind until I finish my secondary education.

Anyway, just thought that time do pass by real fast.
It seems as if everything that had happened was just last week.
Those wide-smiled, tummy-aching laughs and somehow heartbreaking moments. (In short, memorable moments)
I still remember vividly how everything went.
Especially my first day of school.
Back then I still had my "Filipino" accent. Lol.
I didn't understand everybody, thus was sorta alienated. (THANK YOU!)
Way back, I didn't expect that my life would be so amazing.
Like the way I'm having it now. (My life is so amazing that no words can explain how amazing it is)
I thought I'm bound to be a forever outcast the moment I got my feet on the school grounds. -.-

How many more months and everything would come to an end.
Bitter as it sounds, come what may it'll happen nevertheless I shall just move on.
As everybody knows, nothing lasts forever.

And that gives me another thing to talk about.
Nothing lasts forever, well is it true?
I'm thinking of a non-biodegradable stuff every time I hear this phrase.
I think they do last forever. Does that prove that this saying isn't true?

To me, forever is true but irrational.
It's true because there's such word, and I guess cause of the non-biodegradable stuffs that supports it.
Irrational as I guess nobody or nothing's ever proved it.
But whatever.
Forever is forever nothing can change that.

Fuck.
Lol.



Baby,
I love you so very much.
You fill up every missing blank in my life!
Wooooo!
You rock!
Haha.
And yeah, I love your hair uh today!
:P

...boy it's plain to see that you're the only one for me

Just another boring day

Tomorrow is Ain's birthday!
YAY. So, HAPPY 15th "BERT-DAY" AIN!
I have nothing to say already, cause I know all your wishes will come true ;)
So yeah, wish you all the best. To you and ***** actually. :D
I heart you.


Back to the real stuff, so today's been super random.
Been practically idling the whole day, I kinda find it such a waste of time, effort and money that I've come to school today.
Suck.
Anyhoo, it's fine.
Jein was absent again. I miss her. :(
Haha, get well soon faster will you?!
I need to show you something. :D

Been thinking what to blog about since morning, cause I sorta expected that nothing so remarkable would happen today.

Oh crap.
What's up with blogspot?
My draft went haywire.
Whore.
This post is missing something.
And I forgot what I already typed.
Shit.


And to Fitra
Skype is pronounced as SKAYP.
Be ready to part with your 5bucks.
or is it 50?

I love my boyfriend very much
Angelika

Three days

I took a break from blogging for three days, I thought that maybe after sometime I've alot of things to talk about when I come back (to blogging I mean).
But I was dead wrong, it took me forever just to decide what to title this post.

This few days anyway, had worn me out. I don't know how, but I've been feeling tired and sleepy.
And if I sleep, I'd feel sick the moment I wake up. Sickening.

Anyway, I've got the results for some of my mid-year thingy.
I did ok, nothing to be so jubilant about.
I hope that what I've done would at least give me 60% for my overall.
I need to work real hard starting term3.
I hope I can manage though, I mean got to balance everything perfectly.
Which for me is perfectly hard.
Whatever.

Yesterday went for the CIP thing with Tiara.
Everything was fine, we didn't really collect money though.
It just feels awkward going around asking money from strangers without having all of your friends around.
I guess my friends are the ones who gives me most of the courage I have.
Nothing much happened yesterday, just walked around town. Window shopping.
Met Fitra then said bye to Fitra then met Fitra again, went home with Fitra and Tiara. Duh.

That's it I guess, my mind is really empty.
Maybe if I happen to be inspired later on, I can add some more crap.
:)

Bored-er
Angelika

The feel of the sun on my skin

(Just that Shaqdah,Ain,Raihan,Azman and Aliff and maybe Rashid isn't in this photo, as they were still havin fun in the water. Lol. Sorry anyway you guys.
And yeah, Haikal.. as he's at Vivo waiting for us to meet him. Lol)

One thing's for sure, I don't like the feeling of the sun touching my skin.
To me it's just painful and it doesn't make anything good (sunburn).

Anyway, today's been awesome. Had fun with these certain people.
How I wish every morning of my weekend could be spent like that.
Great bonding happened.
Though words and adjectives can't explain what happened and how much fun we sorta had.
Perhaps it'll be in my heart forever. Lol.
I shall say even it's not my actual birthday today, this is the best ever celebration. So far.
I hope I can celebrate my every birthday with the people I was just now, and some who also weren't there like Tiara.

Anyway,
thanks to "Sally And Vannie" for the gift ( which can't be mentioned here in my blog) the two of you gave me, it's really something new to me. Perhaps, this will be the start. If I happen to like it. Lol.
Big thanks to Ain and Shaqdah for the dress you girls gave me. Three words - I LOVE IT. Really!
Awesome girls. :)

Talking about gifts...

This pretty much perfect boyfriend material guy.
Who loves taking photos with his mouth wide open. Is my boyfriend slash my favourite brat.
He bought for me this awesome necklace which is made of white gold and diamonds. ;)
Yeah, ain't he sweet, awesome, greatest and everything else you can think of?
:)
So yeah, thank you baby for giving me the second necklace of my life. Lol.
And for saving and stuff just to buy me this awesome gift. I'm more than lucky to have you.
Awwwww.
I love you. Hell lot.

Appreciatee
Angelika

they come and go

This was my phone, before it got it's very first major scratch on its very most important part. The camera.
My phone was able to take flawless photos.
It's just like a camera, but yeah, it's a phone. Even it's only like 5mp.
I don't know where did the scratch came from, and until now I'm still wondering.
Whatever.

Today, school was only for 1hour and 45minutes.
Awesome. Yes.
Went to various grocery stores with Tiara to find various stuffs for tomorrow.
Bullcrap, I don't think whatever we bought is enough.
Blame those incomplete nearby stores.
Whatever.
And I only got 70 more dollars living with me. -.-
Money makes the world go round.

Well you know what, whatev.
Shall see tomorrow.
Like how's it going to be and everything.
I wonder whether shall I call Tiara and Stephen to buy some more stuffs.

There's hell of a lot stuffs for me to bring.
I need Tiara to come, so that I won't look stupid carrying those stuffs alone.
And yeah!
Haha, I wish her parents let her.
At least let her help me carry the stuffs.
HAHA.

Much awaited.
Angelika

come on get higher

Hello!
So, today's been a short day for me.
Everything seemed to have passed through me real fast.
Anyhoo, certain situations are turning more unpleasant as they can be.
Sucks to think that you shall watch whatever you do infront N so that N and the others won't make further destruction.
Sucks to think that a major perforation is getting far too amid these two parties.
Okay, I shall not get fretful regarding these puerile stuffs.
Though, I still get bothered about certain stuffs that only happened yesterday.
Well you know what situation with N, fuck you.

Ok back to reality, went to NUH today as Tiara needs to visit her grandma.
It took us forever before we reached there, and the whole journey was hell for me as I kept on looking at my phone to check what time was it.
Fortunately we managed to meet every need that needs to be fulfilled.
I shall say everyday with my usual(s) is taking out the worse and making everything better, and because of that I'm living my life to the fullest. Actually. Fuller. Than. I. Used. To.
Thank you. :)

Lastly, life is too short.
I believe we shall make peace and not war. HAHA.
Even hating somebody gives us a rush of enjoyment, it's just temporary.
Cause at the end of the day we can't erase the fact that once you shared something, deep inside you know you'll miss each other and you know some of the memories are kept. Irreplaceable.

One word-Tolerate.
Learn it.

For the sake of it

Angelika

come to think of it

Today's May 17, and guess whose birthday is it. Mine.
Thrilling.
I don't feel anything special, perhaps I'd feel it by Wednesday.
I think I'm really growing up. Sudden rush of stupidity came to me, accompanied by "mature" thoughts".

Angelika's day doesn't mean the whole world shall stop and celebrate.
Besides I'm not the only person who's having his/her birthday today.
Now, I'm sitting here with the monitor infront of me.
Treating everything as usual, well everything seems usual, except people greeting me happy birthday.
Haha. I'm still fucking fourteen. DUH.

Anyway whether I like it or not I'm already 15.
Good thing I spent my last 14-year-old-girl day awesomely.
Was out with Andre last night.
Lol.
Walked around town after his training.
Technically we just ate at taka's Mcdee's.
I find it real touching and cute that he passed dinner with his friends just to meet me.
He's real awesome you see.
Still sorta thinking what shall he buy for me. -.-
I still prefer surprises leh baby. Lol.
I have no choice but to tell him what I want, since he told me he has no idea what do I want.
The truth is, I wouldn't want anything cause I've already got what I need. :)
Sounds cliche doesn't it? But, it's true.
I feel real blessed right now, for having such a near to perfect life.
More than what I expect, I shall say.

Today isn't really my day.
It's the day for the people who made me what I am this very moment.
And it's the day to thank them.
For making me stronger, teaching me how to love, and finally for teaching me how to live my life the way I live it now.
Parents, bestfriends, siblings, friends, ex-friends, ex-bestfriends, ex-boyfriend.
Last but definitely not the least, Andre.
As you said, I've waited for you for already 15 years.
I've waited for every moment I'm having with you for 15 freaking years.
Damn. I don't wana continue and be sentimental, thank you very much.
Til here.

your 15 year old girl
Angelika

It faded and faded then now it's gone. Never coming back

Today's been awesome!
Thanks to Stephen, Fendi, Junyi, Steven,Danial and Deva for the gift they gave me.
Real awesome bunch. :D




Tangina, tigilan na nga.

Puta, wala na akong kinalaman kahit kanino.
Maliban sa mga taong malapit sa akin ngayon.
Sa mga nakakaintindi nito, ang masasabi ko lang.
Wag na wag ninyo sasabihin kahit kanino kung ano man ang nalalaman ninyo na nababasa ninyo mula dito sa aking blog.
Dahil bakit? Kung para sa kanila to, at dapat nilang intindihin.
I can speak fucking English and translate it for myself.
Kaya, wag nang makiilam at ipagsabi kung ano ang mga nababasa ninyo dito.
Kasi kung pwede nilang malaman eh di sana in-English ko nalang, hindi ba?

Thoughts

Nakakaasar kaya yung nakikita mo yung mga bagay na once sayo ay unti-unting lumalayo.
Mas nakakaasar pa kapag alam mo na unti-unti itong lumalayo dahil ito'y nilalayo.
Nakakaasar kapag nakikita mo yung mga kaibigan mo, masaya, pero wala ka.
Nakakaasar kapag yung mga tao na hindi naman gusto ang isa't isa ay nagkukunwari para lang walang gulo.
Maraming nakakaasar na bagay and unfortunately nararamdaman ko halos lahat.
Hindi ko na siguro sasabihin kung ano ang mga nangyayari sakin.
Siguro masasabi ko lang na tungkol sa pagkakaibigan to.

Meron akong kaibigan, kailan lang kami naging magkaibigan ang ibig kong sabihin ay, kelang lang kami naging malapit.
Unti-unti, kapatid na ang turing ko sa kanya, kagaya ng turing ko sa iba mga kaibigan ko magmula nung unang araw ko dito.
Masasabi ko na nalapit din sya sa mga kaibigan ko, at ang masasabi ko... natuwa ako sa pangyayari na yun.
Pero, ngayon may mga pangyayari na sadyang nakakapikon.
Siguro dahil nagseselos lang ako? (ok, yuck) O, naasar na malapit sya sa kinaaasaran ko na babae. Tangina.
Maniwala man kayo mga nakakaintindi nito, oo na ako 'to.

Importante kasi sya sakin eh.
Asar naman eh.
Tangina naman oh.



To those who can't understand, well this is nothing much.
Don't be too curious.
Haha.

centuplicate

This is my hundredth post!
My day is coming, I'm 15 in three days!

Oh yeah, I didn't blog for two days as I've been using facebook on my iPod and I'm already satisfied with just facebook.
I've nothing to talk about now, not much happenings.
Art and POA paper was just now, POA... was fine.
All my accounts didn't balance though...
Art, I drew some "turtle" with a kiwi for its shell.
Made full use of 3hours. YES, THREE LONG HOURS.
Baby went home first as he needs to study and stuff.
Dang, I miss him.

Your most awesome young lady
Angelika

million dollar smile

This day's awesome.
Met Andre. He was suppose to ask for a new ezlink, but he can't. HAHAHA, poor thing.
Then hung out around yew tee for awhile then went to cck again.
Lol, I was bored at home and since I know I've nothing to do, I just chose to accompany him til there so I can be with him.HAHA.

Then went home,camwhored and everything.
At around 4-ish, dad wanted to cut his hair so mom and I went with him.
While dad was at his thing, mom and I went to mcd's.
Mommy and I were talking about cool stuffs. :D
Never thought she's cool about those stuffs. (stuffs that need not to be mentioned. :) )
Then mom bought me Bacardi.
Yay! My first ever liquor! Lol.
It tastes okay-ish, but I like it.

Tomorrow's school, and then Wednesday is math paper I and Social Studies.
I have yet studied social studies, find it such a bore.
Thursday's POA and art, damn. I think I'm going to fail art.
Ugggh!
I'm not ready for the exams!
Bummer.

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there.
Especially to my most wonderful mom.

Edna,
You've been supporting me all these while. Thank you for that.
Thank you for being patient and for being the best you can be to me and my siblings.
The three of us are forever grateful to how you raised the three of us.
Thank you for tolerating me, and I'm sorry for every wrong thing I've done.
Mommy, words can't explain how much you've been through just to raise the three of us practically almost all on your own.
(as the three of us grew up having dad here in Singapore)
Nothing can ever replace whatever you've done to groom me and my siblings to make us whatever we are right now and bring out the best in us.
You are the reason, that's why I'm so awesome.
Hahaha.
Lastly, you're the most beautiful mom I've ever known. And forever it'll be you.
I love you mom.

Your daughter,
Angelika

caught between situations

Trust.
A short word with a big meaning.

I'm the person who can trust others easily but on the other side doubts much easier.
Face it, we tend to doubt and think that others are indeed lying when we smell something is amiss.
Be it if he or she is your other half, your parent, your friend or just some random stranger next to you.
Trust forms when you know a person well.
Regardless of how long have you known one another.
Situations change, so does people, if people change... does that mean the trust would be back to square one?
Perhaps it will.
If the changed situation brings you away from the person you trust, you tend to forget what the both of you shared. Even the toughest scenario maybe.
It's tormenting to know when you wake up that the person you trust most just doubted you. If you trust him/her so much, how dare could he/she doubt you?

I doubted you, well I'm sorry.
I believed the situation more than you.
Two years, you can say... I've known you for two years.
Or let say, I've known the old you for two years.
I trusted the old you.
Situations brought the both of us far from each other.
Situations made me or us doubt you.
Let's face it my friend, you really did change.
The down to earth girl I used to know is gone.
The girl I used to love the most compared to the rest of my friends is not the current you.
I believe the both of you looks alike, has the same name. But she isn't you.
I miss her.
Bring her back will you?

Shaqdah,
I'm sorry, perhaps the gaps and all the stuffs that's keeping us from being friends again made me doubt you.
I don't know much about the current you, so I don't really know what to say.
I do not know how does your thinking work.
I don't know what do you really feel, and whether are you telling the truth or what.

We are friends. But look closely... Do we act as if we are?
We see each other every morning, we greet each other, eat at the same table every recess, perhaps share the same set of friends.
That's what keeping the both of us together, these are some of the only stuffs which makes us friends.
Don't you think so?
If we won't be able to do some of the stuffs I mentioned earlier, are we still friends?
xxxxxxx

All I can say is I'm sorry alright.
And I'm trying to trust you again.
Just be sure that you'll be open with me/us, so that I/we won't doubt.
I'm sorry again.

I was
Angelika

And yes, I'm proud to say-I don't like liars.

When the day started, I was feeling overall lethargic.
I felt like literally doing nothing.
School was boring, making everything worse for me.
There was no math for us, as we need to go to the hall.
For our IC and stuff.
Ez-link-payment-mode was unavailable, which was really sad.
So, ended up owing school money.
Then went to plaza to slack and eat.
Had fun, was overdosed with it.

Anyway, I don't know why am I still stoning, and not even studying even a bit.
Exams are real soon, and I'm not even an ounce scared.
I'm weird.
Shit.
Okay, I guess that's pretty much for my day.

My day's coming.
10 days

circles never end

A lot of happenings for today.
Felt weird,happy,cheated,sad,confused and a lot more of other feelings.
The day started normally, stupid physics fast test was "easy".
The subject is a downright crap subject.
Maths and then physics, nothing much really happened.
Recess, then English, watched Koi something something movie.
It's a Hindi movie, and it's nice. :D
Next was history, practically did nothing.
Went to lot one with Salina then met Haikal then met Stephen and Fitra.
Walked around and twaddled.


Today...
I got this sudden feeling of weirdness.(duh)
I sort of felt that my feeling for boyf is fading.
I don't like that feeling. But I don't really know what was up with me, and why did I feel that way.
I love him more than anything.
But I suddenly had the feeling as if everything was fading away.
(fygi (for you guys information) I've already got over that feeling, I'm back to my old self. Thank you, I know I'm weird.)
I felt unappreciated, but as far as I know I am appreciated.
I don't get me.
Everything was downright wrong. Real messy.
Fortunately, I recovered from the weird thing real soon.
As I don't know how am I going to carry on with life without him.

Andre, thank you for understanding how I feel.
You're the best boyf any girl can get.
Glad that, you're my boyf.
You're more than awesome. :D
I love you.


Next.
I just want to say this random thing.
I'd rather know the painful truth rather than to be kept in the dark.
I know my friends know that.
I assume everyone feels the same way, as nobody wants to know some fake stuff.
If that's the case then, I'd rather ask people not to let me know about their stuff.
What's the point of faking it?
I mean, it's just crap.
Liars go to hell.
Ok, I might sound as of I never lied before, but hey, if the situation will hurt your close ones, why must you do it?
It's heartless.
I pity heartless people, as they don't know the real meaning of life.
Therefore, they don't live their lives to the fullest.

I think that's it for now.

I'm sorry baby

is it possible mr lovable?

My hair is shorter by 5inches(?) now.
Nothing seems different anyway. :D
(Thank God)
So yeah, today pretty much nothing.
Didn't go to school as it's mother tongue, and since I don't have one, I need not to go to school.
But I also went to school to pass my stuff to Ms Chua and see Andre and friends .
HAHAHA.
My mom was saying "Can't you live without seeing your boyfriend for one day?".
Then I just smiled at her.
Perhaps it's true. Hees.
Then when I got this sec two to give my work to Ms Chua we (me,Tiara,Shaqdah,Ain(as Salina need to go home) ) headed to Bangkit to buy slurpee and meet Andre, Fitra and Junyi.
Then talked and everything.
The girls decided to go Fajar while the boys went to boyf's place.
I went home since I don't want to go Fajar. :X
Then that's it for my day today.
And I'm feeling all excited about tomorrow.
HOHO.

Your most awesome girl
Angelika

down memory lane

Sometimes, I wonder where the hell did all my memories go.
I mean, I don't remember anything when I was a child, except I studied at this elite school. Was fetched by a school bus and had a best friend named Rosette.
I don't even remember how she looks like.
All I remember about that school was, we had this farm where there was a lot of bunny poop inside as there were bunnies running around everywhere.
And we can only use the pool after some major exams, which means twice every semester. Lol.
We musn't run in the corridor, and when I say musn't. They mean MUST NOT.
I remember once, I was caught screaming (in tagalog) while running along the corridors.
I think I was given F for my conduct.
Suck.

Then after two years, I transferred school.
Everything changed, the behavior of the students, the corridors.
Especially the walls, there weren't any "Please talk in English" and "Please don't run along the corridors" posted on them.
No more school bus, no more Rosette.

I came to this school, Philippine's oldest girl's school.
Colegio De Santa Isabel or in English, Santa Isabel College.
It was weird, very weird for a young transferee like me.
This girls' school suddenly became co-ed after sometime, as there was an epidemic of homosexuals.
Whatever.
Then I found new set of weird friends who has a trend of asking their new classmates about their birthday.
I don't know, when it was my first day almost half of the class asked me. "When's your birthday?"
Then me being a very patient girl and since I was new, I'd say patiently.."May 17".
I was one of the youngest in the class, and whenever they talk about who's the oldest and whatever, I always lose. -.-
Grade 4 (Primary 4) everything was awful, I didn't pay real attention to my studies.
My 90s went down to 70s.
There were not much stuffs interesting about my primary life.
It's just funny to think that once I didn't know how to say bad words and I ever believed that sticking out your tongue is rude. And I mean real rude.
That whenever I say stupid I'd get scared whether my brother would tell our mother or what.

Then I transferred in Chestnut Drive everything was different.
REALLY DIFFERENT.
It was far away from Seton(my first school) or Santa Isabel.
Everybody says bad words, without doubt.
It was normal, and no such things as offense whenever you say fuck and so on and so forth.
Then I learned to say bad words.
Lol.
It's funny for me.
Damn.
From a well behaved girl to this.
I can't even remember me being a well behaved girl.
Lol.
Whatever.

Your MissBehaved girl
Angelika

emancipation

An okay-ish day for me.
English paper was okay-ish too but somehow, I think my compo sucks real hard.
What I wrote was kind of far away from what I planned, as I thought whatever I planned was real long, it was some kind of a novel already and 500 words won't satisfy everything.
Out of panic, I just wrote something similar to my original one.
I chose the saying goodbye thingo anyway. I believe it's the most easiest.
I guess.
Cause that topic is the only thing that caught my eye.
Without even reading the other topics, I chose number four.
Then the letter writing sucks harder, as I forgot what's the format for formal letter.
I practically just copied every information then just chose one venue (duh) and said some crappy cliche stuffs then I'm done.
That was for my paper 1.

My paper 2 was fine, at least I think I did better compared to paper 1.
It was kind of easy.
Yeah....

Then needed to stay back to do maths.
Damn, that thing is like real long. And one can't finish it in one hour.
I stayed for like at least 1 hour then Ms Chua let me go.
She was disturbing Andre, I wonder how did she know. About us.
Weird ok.
Went to yew tee point with Andre, Haikal,Stephen and Deva.
Then decided to eat at Mcdee's also.
Blah and everything.
Then Tiara suddenly called me saying that probably she's going to meet us and stuff.
Then yeah, met Tiara, ate her apple dippers.
They enjoyed the free caramel.
Stuffs.

Time to separate, Tiara needed to go home, Andre sent me home.
I left my bag at home and went to yew tee back with Andre.
Then disaster.
Fought with him.
Why?
He was holding my hand properly while on the way home and when we were on the way back to yew tee, but the moment he saw Stephen and Haikal he let go of my hand.
Well not literally let go, it's just that his grip loosened the moment he said Haikal's name.
I felt it. :(
Like, what the hell.
Then there goes Haikal saying that Andre's just perhaps shy and everything.. He even used the term embarrassed which made everything sound so bad.
Perhaps yeah....
Whatever.
Then got incredibly pissed.
Blah.
Perhaps now I'm already okay.
Well I sound okay while I was talking to Andre on the phone, so I guess yeah, I am okay.

Now I'm thinking whether shall I go to school tomorrow.
I want to, but I don't want to wake up early.
Or perhaps just go to school, then ask my friends to pass my maths to Ms Chua also (?).
So that if she sees me, whatsoever she won't run after me and everything like that.
Oh well, I'll just do what I feel like doing. Tomorrow.
That's it I guess.....
And yeah, 13 more days til the day of yours truly.
:D
I'm turning 15, and I'm getting my IC!

Your most awesome girl
Angelika

Chill

Just got home from my dad's friend's place.
Saw this cute guy, damn he's really cute.
But I got over him already. :P
Pretty much nothing happened.
So yeah.
Tomorrow's English paper.
Uhm, I hope my mind won't go haywire and forget every word I know. (That usually happens to me)
Wonder what time shall I go home tomorrow.
Whatever.
Shall end it here.
Got to sleep I guess...
Wish me luck for tomorrow.
:D

Your miss number one
Angelika

uh

Haven't got over the current situation.
It's really exasperating to think about this thing.
Grrrrr...



Anyway, I'll try not do dip me in this situation.
Thank you!


Let's blog about this pretty awesome guy.
So there's this guy I'm in love with.
He disappoints me sometimes, but it's nothing compared to how happy he makes me.
His smile melts my heart and his voice makes my heart skip beats.
It may sound cliche, but he does. Really.
It's simply unimaginable for me to think how life would be, if it's not US anymore.
I don't know how am I going to carry on with life.
Sounds dramatic, but really.

Everybody, wakes up every morning for a reason, don't they?
And my reason-Andre.
It may sound obsessive, but perhaps I am really obsessed with him.
All I know is, it's in a good way.

I love him, everything about him.
His awesome smile.
Everything.

Words can't explain how much I love him.
And it's irritating.

And finally, baby, I want you to know that I'll always love you.
For real.
I can make it through forever if you're with me.

Your girl for ever
Angelika

I am just speechless

Current situations leaving me speechless.
My mind is really empty as my thoughts are hovering out of my consciousness.
I hate these current situations as they're making me ponder about stuffs I shouldn't even think about.
And as far as I know, I shouldn't be even so concerned about these circumstances some of my closest ones are going through.
I tell myself "Get your ass off these scenes", but I just can't. My heart can't do it.

I have this good friend, and I appreciate it so much that he/she listens to me.
Don't worry friend, you'll be better sooner or later.
Whatever is supposed to happen will happen.
Take it easy, you know I'm always here.


I have another friend, he/she don't know what he/she is really doing and it's really pissing me off.
I do not know why do I even bother about him/her.
He/She probably knows what he's/she's doing, but all I want for him/her is the best.
Perhaps he/she don't know that.
I know that he/she isn't in a very easy state.
But if I were him/her, I'm going to choose the other path as I know it's the safer and much more trusted way.
All I can say now is I wash my hands off him/her.
And good luck to you "friend".
I hope you chose the right path.
I hope you get better in his/her hand.
I got a feeling that you won't, but I'll pray that he/she will treat you right.
I hope that he/she will respect you. AS YOU.

And I don't think you can bring back the old me to you.
I've probably had enough.
You already got him/her.
I've got nothing to say about you anymore.
Thank you.
Goodbye.

Your disappointee
Angelika