Some random photo.
Lol.
Ok, done.

bushed

I am completely bushed.
Today's been an okay-ish day.
Got scoldings from teachers from the first three subjects.
Well, ain't just me...perhaps the whole class.
And it's not really scolding... perhaps just some sort of an eye-opener kind of thing.

Blah, and lots of blah.
Got "raped" and raped Kavitra.
Lol, the bitch does love touching people's boobs. (teehee)
Then cross country.
Then yeah, went to mcdee's with Marcus, Haikal and Salina.
Lol, bought food for Haikal as he didn't have money.
Then yeah, talked, laughed out lot then went home.

I really miss my baby.
Obsessed much?
Haha, well not really.
I love him.
That's it...or not?
Haha, whatever.
So yeah, baby, I really miss you.
Won't be seeing you for three days.
Like wow.
......
That just sucks.
So yeah, I love you Andre.

Your most awesome girl
Angelika

homecoming.

And I'm back for real.
Well maybe, if blogger won't be fucked up again.
So yeah, these days that I didn't blog many happenings happened. :)
Haha, yesterday, the most awesome part was when me, Jein, Stephen Junyi, Sharran and some 2 Indian boys went through the "shortcut" Mr Hoe was near us. And I mean real near.
Haha, BLIND!
:P
then yesterday went to town, to buy some filipino style condiments.
Lol.
Ate some filipino dessert, awesome.
It's been so long since I ate that food.
It's been years also since I last saw Philippines.
I kind of miss Philippines, but hey I'm loving my life here in Singapore like hell lot.
For real.

So yeah, today...
nothing much happened, baby sent me home. And yeah went home with Tiara also.
God, I find me and Andre's relationship real awesome and amazing.
Just now when we were buying something from sweetalk (?) this lady (who was kind of young) was smiling while serving us and everything.
I saw her trying to stop smiling, and I felt she was unsuccessful.
Lol, I felt all awwwww-y.
Lol, I think she thinks we are awesome. Am I right sweetalk lady?
I felt kind of proud inside.
Seriously.


So yeah, perhaps that's it?
Btw, Jein didn't come to school today...
kind of weird not having her around, but yeah...
Tomorrow she's going to go to school.
I hope.
Anyway, I don't feel like going to school tomorrow as, there'd be art and I have not yet finished my stuff yet.
Damn it.
Oh well I'll try to finish it up later.
I hope I can.

I love you Andre.

Your most awesome girl
Angelika

New hair

And yes, this is what I do when boredom strikes.
It looks fine isn't it?
Oh well, that's the benefit of being awesome.
Lol, vain much.
Ok.
I'm done here.
:D

catching up with photos

reminiscence

Yesterday was slightly awful.
Oh wait, shall not use awful as it sounds ugly.
Oh well, it was slightly memorable (?)
Lol.
It started off with, I was almost late cause of the lrt.
It was stuck for like 10 minutes (?).
Me and my brother, and Salina were really behind time.
But good thing we made it on time.

Mr. Nassim (spelling?) asked us to stop and yeah stop.
I don't get it why must he ask us to stop.
I was kind of pissed, cause it was extremely hot.
Weather's been affecting my mood lately, just realized.
Beyond the stuffs, there were further distractions. (lol)
Like Ms. Tan, she kept on assuming we're late (me and Salina, Shaqdah)
Just because we're not in the parade square during morning assembly.
Like hello, the VP held us up. WE WERE'NT SUPPOSED TO BE LATE!!!!
Well, we are not late, cause even the VP said we're not late.
Grrrrrrrrr.

Ok then, the rest of the just passed through me. (I mean the curriculum time)

Next me and the girls plus Raihan and maybe Danial, hang out in our classroom.
Me and Tiara were dancing some contemporary kind of dance,
versus Shaqdah and Salina.
Obviously we won, cause perhaps our dance touched Raihan and Ain (the judges).LOL.
Freaking fun I tell you.

Then we decided to get our asses off the classroom, as I'm petrified of the auntie.
I'm scared that she might call the general office and complain about us.

After that, me and Tiara hid from Salina and the rest.
Lol, we were inside the toilet taking photos.
HOHOHO.
Downright silly.


Then I went to find for Haikal, damn the asshole was nowhere to be found.
Good thing I saw his other friends.
He was somewhere I never expected him to be.
Outside the faculty room.
I was like "wth?"
And what the hell is he doing there?
Oh well, whatever.


Then went out and met Andre,Danial,Stephen,Fitra and Deva.
Yeah... they were bragging about the jamming they did.
Haha.
Blah blah.
Then the rest of the boys went down from Ferhad's place.
Then they played soccer and everything.
Fitra went home to take his camera.
Blah blah.
I was with Tiara, and yeah she was sad and crying.
Lol, Syakir's fault. Then yeah, I called Syakir so she would stop crying.
So heartbreaking seeing your bestfriend cry and everything. Lol.

Stuffs. and craps.

Had a "small" fight with baby.
Gah! He's somehow being petty.
But yeah, duh, I still love him.
Never fought with him like that before.
That time I felt like breaking down already, couldn't take it.
As I was giving hell to him. And I was mad with myself for doing so.
I was irritated all the way home.
And then yeah, after 1hr and so we were ok already.
Good thing.
But then the moment we were ok, I realized a very very bad thing.
I realized I won't be seeing him for two days.
And I'm really going to miss him.
Awwwww, curse these fightings.
And yeah til now I'm missing him.

Guess I shall blog til here.
My post is too wordy already.
I don't want it to appear boring.
Haha, perhaps it's somehow boring as I was practically talking about my whole day.
Lol, but if seriously. If you were me, I bet you'll find yourself saying "WOW".
Haha, cause I have a very awesome boyf and friends.
Awesome life.
:)

Your miss number one
Angelika

rewind

Lol, yesterday was pretty much something like today.
Well pretty much.
Yesterday, I mentioned all the happenings in my other blog, so I shall not repeat it anymore.
Lol, I shall just post some photos perhaps.


So yeah, today went home with Andre,Tiara,Stephen and Marcus.
Lol, real awesome bunch right?
Anyhow, today sort of went well.
Kind of boring and yeah, boring

Oh well just knew that I can't upload photos.
Wow, blogspot.
Bummer much.

So yeah, I think now I have nothing to talk about.
Oh wait!
Oh forget it.
But then yeah, Andre, I love you.

Pretty much awesome
Angelika

Monotonous

Nothing much is happening.
Ughhh, boring.
All I can say is I'm really really getting back on track!
Yay Angelika!
Lol. Whatev.
Today was somehow alright.
Neutral to the max.
Went home with Tiara and Marcus and Andre.
:)
Lol, never thought Tiara shares the same view as me.
I thought I was alone having that thought and everything.

So yeah, just now chilled at Yew Tee Point for awhile which I find real funny.
It feels real weird to type Yew Tee Point with chill.
Lol.
Weird.
Ok.
So yeah, perhaps that's it?
:)

To Andre:
I want to thank you for being such a very understanding person (boyf)
For sending me home and yeah.
Even you're tired and crap.
Ugh.
I love you.
I know you know that.

Your favourite girl
Angelika

out of randomness

Lol, ok this is out of randomness.
Well to me, I have no favorites and everything.
But hey, there would still be the best one right?
The one who you're extremely close and you always have the most fun with.
So let's say I have this girl named Tiara. She isn't my favorite, cause yeah, I treat all my girls the same.
But lately she has been the one who I can talk properly to.
Who I can have the most fun with. And who I can relate most with. Well lately.
:D

I seem to be more enthusiastic now

This day's been fine.
Kind of boring though.

And Ms Chua is asking the whole class to stay back til 4 tomorrow.
I don't think I want to.
I think same goes for some of my classmates too.
Can't it be other day?
Like Friday perhaps?
Ugh, whatever.

I hope tomorrow would be real awesome man.
I dread boring school days to the max.
Spice it up a bit will you (insert whoever is to blame)

I think I'm done here.

you know you love me
Angelika

Just the thought of being with you tomorrow is enough for me to get through the day.

I love you.

last night

Yesterday was extremely fun, I tell you.
The day ended in a blink of an eye.
Blah blah, when school ended baby sent me home.
Then yeah, chilled at my place for a while, while worrying for my brother.
long story.
Met Andre, Marcus and Timothy at Bukit Panjang.
Went to school together, took 75.
Curse that bus, that bus had a bird in it.
And that's my worst nightmare.
The bird was flying around and everything, I can hear the flapping of its wings.
It's indubitably disgusting.
And I almost cried.
The best part is, there were lots of students from our school, which I shall say the cool ones.
Seriously embarrassing.
Ok, then speech day.
Students came at 0545 to school to bore themselves and to get scoldings from various teachers.
Awesome isn't it?
Watched the SYF performances, and I shall say the dancers were really good.
And Roth made me go "WOW". Seriously, she's a great great dancer.
Then yeah, headed home.
Was real tired.
Then yeah.

As for today, pretty much nothing's happening.
And I got a feeling that it'll be the same for tomorrow.
We shall see.
:)
I want to watch 17again with my clique!!!!!!
:DD

you know you love me
Angelika

jein

Okay, so this asshole might be leaving Singapore this Sunday - for good. And she just formally informed me yesterday. Hello, Jein... what up with the short notice?!
Perhaps, I'm going to miss her. PERHAPS. Or maybe not? (if only I can't miss you).

Asshole, this is a message for you.
I just don't understand why would you want to go back to our country?
I don't fucking get it.
There's nothing there. Angelika is in Singapore, hello.
And we know how your fashion sense is so uncommon there. Or shall we use weird? Lol. No offence.
Pero, hindqo parin maintindhan...Bakit? Bakit mo pa kailangang umalis? Alam mo yun...
You might be facing problems now... you might be acting out of...irritation(?).
And c'mon, school will start on June, why the hell are you leaving so early?
What the hell you going to do there? You're going to die there. :)
Cause of the fact that, there's no me and you're going to miss me. Badly.
Kung kelan alam ko na kung sino yung mga kaibigan ko ng matagalan, dun ka naman aalis, kamusta naman yun?

Ok, I guess this is enough.
I hope when you get back there you'd still be an avid reader of my blog.
And if ever you come back, you better show yourself to me.

OH FCUK.
Just remembered something.
hindi ka rin naman gago, malapit na birthday ko.
and here you are saying farewell to everybody.
Wala, hindi na tayo bati.
>:p

Okay

Woke up more than late.
It was 6.40am I guess, while me and my brother should get our asses off our place by 6.30am.
Lol.
We were real late.
So I thought there's no point doing things faster as we'll also end up late.
And need to do silent reading and every morning stuff.

When I got to school Andy asked for me and my bro's ezlink. -.-
for me, it means.. detention. Duh.
And frankly I detest detention. I mean who doesn't?
Blah blah.

Art, we are asked to do the hall as tomorrow's speech day.
Damn, that was a very pissing moment.

blah blah.
Anyway, I don't have any idea why am I having sudden extreme headaches.
It's getting on my nerves.
It's real painful.
fcuk.
Nothing much happened today.
Pft.

You know you love me
Angelika

complete crap

Life's been getting better I shall say.
I think I'm getting back on track. Thank God.
But I don't get it why can't it just be - i good things getting better instead of having better things then having the other things worse?
Get me?
I also don't sort of get it, but try and comprehend it.
My life is getting better yet getting worse at the same time.
Weird.
I heard some of my friends planning to transfer and all.
And God knows how I treasure all my friends.
I'd be real heartbroken if one of them moves away or what.
Seeing them move away, for me, is as bad as losing them.
Why?
Without seeing them for a long time, you'd feel this certain gap.
Then sooner or later, they'll find new friends, face it. They might forget you.
Be realistic, I've experienced it myself.
I don't even know my primary school friends now.
And I don't even know some of their names.
It may be or may not be possible(current friends leaving) , but who fucking cares(?).
I just don't want any separations to happen.
Cause, literally they're already part of my life.
Duh.

Anyway, I guess I shall not make my tone gloomy and everything.
I might turn ugly. (?)
Crap.
Damn, kind of remembered something the moment I typed 'ugly'.
Been pissed the whole day cause of that.(kind of)
Stephen said something to me which really made the starting of my day real sickening
But hey, in fairness my day ended perfectly. *wink

But that sickening thing really left me some kind of an impression or something.
I don't really get it why some people think they're extremely good and everything. Like they're perfect or what.
Get this thing straight biatch - Nobody is perfect.
And definitely that applies to you and you and you.
You're pissing me off real bad.
You're provoking me to the highest point.
Do one more wicked bitchy thing and I'd be one of your avid haters.
Accept reality.
Try to be humble.
Even a little bit.
Trust me.
I'm Angelika.
Hoho.

you know you love me
angelika

Exhausted

I feel extremely exhausted man.
I feel so totally tied up with studies.
Man, how cool would life be if I can just be totally rich and successful without going through the pains of studying.
I've been feeling pressure is with me and it won't get off my back. It's sticking to me like some gum stuck in somebody's hair.
It's extremely sick to think about homework, not to mention a lot of homework, meeting up with parents' and teachers' expectations.
And a lot more.
I guess my foundation and everything isn't that strong.
I mean, I have a poor sense of organization and responsibility (?)
That's why I guess I'm having difficulties now.
I mean no matter how hard I try and everything, I'd be disturbed.
I don't know why and how, but I feel that I am disturbed.
I also don't get the point why do I keep on ranting and complaining about this.
While I sort of feel that it's also my fault, that I'm not persevering much.
Can somebody make me grow up?
And point out my mistakes, open my eyes and make me face up to reality.
That I need to study and work hard for me to be able to reach my dreams
I don't need pressure, I just need some push. And perhaps a tight(?) slap, I really need to stop daydreaming.
George damn it, I need to change pronto.
I need more inspiration.
Lol, not that I am saying Andre and my friends aren't inspiring me.
They are. They've been the reason why I've been waking up and looking forward for every school day.
I'm being all enthusiastic to go to school, cause I want to see them and not really "learning about new stuffs".

Oh well, sometimes Andre would ask me to do my homework and all.
Frankly, I've been doing my homework cause he asked me too.
I really don't get me.
And sometimes, in the middle of my daydreaming, there would be this commercial break kind of thing inside my brain.
Asking me, what am I doing, instead of making my parents proud and everything.
One word- Shit.
I'm against myself. I'm on the edge of breaking down man. (duh, exaggerating)
I hope I'd change.
As soon as possible... NOW.
I need to focus.
People, friends, I need you to inspire me more.
Lol.
Baby.. inspire me more.
teehee.

you know you love me
Angelika

Speech

Hoho, I found my speech!
I guess we are meant to be, y'know cause I thought I lost it. But the auntie gave it to me just now.
I think I shall type it out?
Haha, I'm real proud with this work, cause it's a real last minute work.
:)
So here it goes.

Should parents interfere with the growing social life of their teenage children? Yes or No?

Ask any teenager and you'll likely hear that the time spent with their friends is the most important part of their day. I believe that making friends is one of the most valuable things we, teenagers do as we learn and grow up. But many parents are often perplexed by our social lives, I suppose they wonder how to help us to cope with challenges like, heartbreaks, and joys if making friends, losing them, and making friends again - in short, our social life.

I believe friendship helps us gradually to learn to be independent. Choosing our own set of friends and not needing our parents hand-holding is a usual thing for the most of us, but sometimes some parents can't accept the fact that their little baby girl or boy has already grown up.

Sometimes, I know, teenagers feel that their parents should just get of f their back and leave them alone. I say, parents are just worried like what i said earlier, therefore they tend to step in and tell us what to do. Generally, I feel that it's wrong as I believe we need to fall even we can pick ourselves up.
We won't learn the real thing if we can't even go through a full experience. And now, that's what I call hands-on learning.

I believe, there's no such thing as "wrong choice" that's because I think whatever we've done or chose to do, we've done it or that for a reason. Don't you think so?
On the point of parents only wanting the best for us. They try to prevent what might happen, hence giving the parents the rights to interfere in our social lives.

To see their children make it good in life is what ever parent longs for. That's why I think all of them tend to interfere in our social lives, It's just because they love us.
Lastly, I want to add up something, cause I've been having this life-long belief, that when we learn teachers and parents are just there to guide us, never to decide for us.
The last say is still up to us.

Haha, whatever.
I did that speech with a little help from Mdm Salina and trust me it's a tiny bit of help only. Haha.

Anyhow, today nothing much happened.
Had a day-long headache.
Real exasperating

And yeah, Happy Birthday Edna.
A.k.a. Angelika's , Ronaldo's, and Hanika's Mom.
Hoho.
I love you mom.

blasé (?)

Some random unglam photo.
Lol, seriously bored. And missing Andre.
Not text-ing him cause I'm always left speechless.
Hoho.
I've been having this strange feeling since last night.
Uhm, it's not exactly a problem though.
But it might make things turn awkward.
Oh well, I don't care. Besides, I can't fully rely on my instincts.
Haven't done any homework.
:)
But I'll try to do it later.
Maybe I'll start doing my work by 3?
Promised baby that I'm going to finish those homework by today.
byyy, if I don't finish them by today right, I want you to know I tried my best. Haha.
I'm being real lazy with stuffs regarding to studies lately.
I don't know what's up with me.
Downright shitty unstable thinking of mine.
Ugggh, stressing!
Lol. Whatever, I'm still going to live my life to the fullest.
Ok, I think I shall make a bet with myself (?)
Lol, perhaps it's to make myself study.
Pft.
I'm talking real shit right now.

you know you love me
Angelika

isn't he the sweetest thing?

I was browsing through the photos in my photo folder, and saw both of these photos.
Awwwwwww, Isn't my boyf the sweetest thing?
Haha, he was in my mind all day long man.
I so totally miss him.
Awwwwwww.
Haha, byyy, I love you. :)

Good Friday

Went to church with Stephen today, was downright late.
The mass starts at 11 and we arrived at 12, approximately as far as I know, mass' duration is like only for one hour.
I was like to Stephen "Wow, we're so early for the 3pm mass." Lame.
Blah Blah, wasn't really late after all, kind of made it for the communion session. :)
Then after mass went to Vivo.
Even before we went there, we kind of like stayed at the bus stop calling for friends to go with us. Damn. Also ended up going with nobody except for Stephen alone. Pathetic. Lol.
So yeah, when we were there, we met Fendi and some other people. They were all Indonesians.
I think it was some kind of a bonding session they were having.
Lol.

Went all around Vivo for the rest of the day.
Lol, walking in and out from every shop. A major window-shopping shall be the word to describe the whole event.
There was even this time when Stephen was looking around, a lady came to him and asked "fitting room(?)".
HAHA, LOL!
Trust me, it was downright crazy man.
Haha, never thought Stephen looked like some kind of a sales guy or something.
Haha, shit.
There were lots of funny moments just now, but apparently I forgot almost every moment.
Haha, oh well whatever.
I think that's for today.
It was all about going around looking around for something to buy when I didn't even have at least 10 cents in my pocket.
Hoho.
Whatev.

P.S.
There's nothing between me and Stephen. Lol.
A lot of people had been thinking that we are together.
Can feel it.
Lol.
Whatev.
He's just a friend. A good one.


I love you Andre.
and that's my boyfriend.

You know you love me
Angelika

Awwww.

My best friend!
Yay!
I hung-out with her just now thus the photos with her.
:)
Meaning no favoritism.

I was late.

Haha, and finally made it to school late!
Lately I've been facing adversities... from a lot of stuffs.
Not just because of school but everything.
Oh well, whatev.
Today pretty much nothing happened, did my speakers' corner thing.
I believe I did quite well, but didn't express much.
As I'm not that familiar in this "speech field".
Lol.
The highlight of the day was..let's see...
the hanging-out part with the best people I've ever known.
too bad Fitra wasn't there and lot more people.
Awwwwwww.
So yeah, I guess that's pretty much for today.
Tomorrow going to church with Stephen.
It's been ages since I've been to a church. -.-

P.S.
I love Andre.

you know you love me
Angelika

I'm kind of back

It's been ages since I blogged.
I missed net life for like 4 days(?)
I didn't get to blog some of the stuffs that happened to me lately.
I've been busy this past few days.
I don't know how, but I am feeling real pressurized.
Real tight.
Oh well, mom has been hospitalized, most of my friends knows that already.
She was supposed to be under the doctor's care until Sunday. (the day before her birthday)
but unfortunately, I don't think so she'll be discharged any sooner.
I miss her and her nagging and everything.
Only one person knows what do I really feel about this current situation.
I feel sad whenever I remember the fact that my mom has to spend the night alone in that isolated-like room of her's in the hospital.
I miss her and her scoldings, asking me to go home straight from school.
I miss everything about her, the way she bothers me about my current social life.
I know the sickness she has now isn't so bad. WHICH IS A FUCKING GOOD THING.
But I can't make myself not to worry, I love my mom so much. I mean who doesn't?
(love their mom I mean)
I need to appear as if I can manage everything, starting from studies to some other things.
I need to appear as if I am cool about everything that's happening right now in my life.
I don't want my little sister to worry about my mom too.
And definitely, I don't want to let my mom and dad think I'm overreacting. -.-
Oh well, I hope my mom would recover faster.
I. Really. Miss. Her.

Get well soon mommy.

You know you Love me
Angelika

Everyday I love you more and more.

No Favoritism included.

Same goes for this photo.

But all I can say is I love the both of these girls. :)
As well as Shaqdah, Salina, Ain and Vanessa. :)

Today is plain yet cool.
How cool right?
I woke up, shocked. "Why the hell am I here in my parents' room?"
Recalled everything and tadaaa, I was extremely terrified being alone in my room.
Even I've been doing that since I-don't-know-when.
Whatever.
Left my camera. Planned to do something but I forgot about it - Totally. Talking about muddle-headedness
I completely forgot about everything last night.
I wonder why.

Oh well, I've been noticing that I'm getting too much dosage of drama.
Lol.
Every little thing that Andre does which is "wrong", I'd make a fuss about it.
WTFish, What the hell is happening to me. I'm becoming weirder and weirder everyday.
Good thing Andre has a thing for toleration.
Nonetheless, I think I've been doing too much of drama, of course he has his own limits.
And I believe I go overboard with those limits.(sometimes?)
My apologies dear.
You know I love you. Haha.
Uhk, I think I shall blog til here. :)

I love you Andre :)
Get well soon Mom.

You know you love me
Angelika